It kind of hurts, when not just you yourself but other people as well realised that you look younger, happier, better in a photo that was just a little more than a year ago.
It has been a tough year, and the recovery has been so much harder than I could ever imagine. This age is supposed to be one when I’m at my prime, where I have all the energy and space to be myself and do what I’m supposed to do.
But instead, I have to start all over again. Not just in education, in building a future, but also in finding myself again. Whatever it is, I have no one to blame but myself.
Call it karma or whatever, I guess everything that I am now is the fruit of my own actions. From the disappointment in education to hurting the person who loved me most, I guess this is retribution.
It is not easy, and it will never be. It’s gonna take much more than just courage and faith to move forward, and to be able to look back finally. Maybe it’s just a lesson that I have to learn, so this is it.
Road of redemption. I will shake the demon off my back and be who I am again. The young, happy, cheerful me. One day, I will be that. So for people who still trust in me, I fully appreciate your faith and belief in me. For you are the people to whom I owed it most.